Numb

Well Julius,

We’ve been sitting here for quite some time

You haven’t said a word.

Tell me what’s on your mind.

I’m quite upset, Doctor.

Only I can’t quite explain why.

I mean I could start somewhere

But I’d be talking until I die

There’s simply too much for me to say

And consequently, not enough time.

So let’s just sit here and wait

As the time goes by.

Well that isn’t why you’re here.

You’re here to talk.

Just say what you have to.

It doesn’t matter where you start.

Well here’s the thing, Doctor.

Everything I feel, I feel rather intensely.

It could be love, anger, and even despair.

It doesn’t matter with me.

So the problem is easy to spot.

I’m way too emotional.

For a guy like me living this life,

That takes its toll.

Well, Mr. Blake.

I’m a lot different from most therapists.

I believe the patient already has the solution.

They just need to realize it.

You’re quite right, Doctor.

I do have a solution, after all.

Instead of feeling much too much,

How about not feeling at all?

You can’t be serious, Julius!

Emotions are what make a human!

Try another solution.

One less putrid.

No, Doc. This is my fix.

I need this.

Emotions have ruined me.

I could tell you why, I have a list.

You shouldn’t be forced that low.

No one should hate their feelings.

Please look harder.

Find a new method of healing.

I’ve reached the ceiling of my tolerance, Doctor.

I’ve been scorned by society and I’m sick of it.

I told you I had my reasons.

Let’s start at the top of the list.

Every time I feel love, I fall in love.

There’s no stopping it.

I don’t want it to occur.

But despite my wish, it happens.

Every time I feel rage,

I become self-destructive.

I lose my mind to the anger.

It becomes addictive.

And when I feel sadness, Doctor.

There’s literally nothing good anymore.

I lose hope in everything, even family.

I forget what I have to live for.

But there’s one more, Doctor.

One that causes the most damage.

The pain that follows these feelings.

The one I can never manage.

It’s disorienting.

It hurts so much, I can’t breathe.

It blinds me to everything around me.

All I can think about is me and who hurt me.

So you see now, the problem?

Will you finally succumb?

I don’t want my feelings anymore.

I just want to be numb.