Dreams vs. Reality

You'd often realize that I smile much too often. I can do that so easily now, even without the potent.

I have no expectations now,  because I got everything I've wanted. Everyone notices the happiness, I've been doing too much flaunting. 

And you notice it the most right now because you're right beside me.

But then, I had woke up. 

And now I'm sitting at home, pouting all alone. My mom notices but she wouldn't understand. So I carry on life and handle it like a man. I keep it to myself with zero guidance and zero help.

 But I still have that feign smile on while I'm out in the open. I don't want people to notice the wanting or the hoping.

 But you wonder the most, the only one that could tell. You said that you would be there if I had ever fell. But, welcome to reality.