Presently. Currently. As of now,
I’m feeling empty.
As I sit and bathe in my thoughts,
They’re never far off … from my enemies
Cause apparently everyone on the other side
Is getting everything they want
And they flaunt
While I sit here listening to their taunts
And truthfully, I shouldn’t care about it
Cause what someone else has
Has absolutely nothing to do with my shit
But still, it’s so surreal
That you can work so hard for something
And it still not be enough
Life’s so fucking tough.
Lately all I wanna do is give up.
But believe it or not, there are people that care
And people who’ve always been there.
Grandmothers who never left
And a church family who was there for every step
So I can’t give up.
Nah I’ve got to keep going
Keep soaring and aiming for the top
I can never stop.
I spend entirely too much time,
Worrying about the wrong things
I create happiness at the expense of my own
Putting my goals aside for someone else’s dream
You could call me selfish
And you’d probably be right
But being selfish isn’t always a bad thing
Not when you’ve been selfless for too long like I
And even on top of that
I just have to get myself together.
One minute I’m darker and the next I’m a saint.
Bipolar nature, not something for you if your heart is
faint.
I keep telling myself that I just want to do what’s right
Cause I’m sick of doing wrong
And I’ve been trying to put this into action
For far too long
But I lost something today
Something that made me realize.
A catalyst in my change.
A push that will change my life.
Things aren’t given to those who don’t deserve them.
Love, life, prosperity. Doesn’t matter. You’ve got to earn
it.
And the only way to do that is to work for it.
I just didn’t have to lose so much to learn this.
But loss is a great teacher and pain is too.
Life is whatever you make it for you.
And that’s the lesson here. Happiness used to be a fantasy
for me
But thanks to this, it’ll be reality. This is my first
epiphany.
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