Poetic Tears

When I think of the distance

I feel like crying

More like dying

Cause you can't see the honesty that I am,

Trying to get you to accept

Cause if you did, that would help 

I know I fucked it all up for us

Lemme undo it and repair that trust

But truthfully, I can't undo anything

Life isn't Microsoft word and we aren't words

We're people with standards and morals and lines to cross

And that's how I lost ... You.

That's true, is it not?

I crossed a line of yours

And became less than an enemy to you 

Just another nigga you abhor

Suffering your hatred has broken me

It's made me see the bitch nigga in me

And if I could've seen it clearly

When I said what I said, things would be so easy

I know that now. I learn eventually.

Just wish you could just forgive me.

You say you have but I know it's not the same

I know you still hate saying my name

I know our team, our family is split now

I know that's my fault

I know I ain't shit

I know all of it

And I just want YOU to know I know

To know that I'm trying to be a better man

Sitting here listening to Kanye

Spit that shit on Everything I Am

Don't know what it is about this beat

But it speaks to me

It's what made me want to say

That I can't live with shit this way

Cause I love you so fucking much

Cause you were the last big piece

If I'm a fucking puzzle,

You made me complete!

Can't you see?!

I'm dying without you here!

Can't you see the pain?

In these poetic tears?