Car Ride

Just a ride with my grandparents


Journey of self-discovery

That’s what it does to me

Through it, I recovered rapidly

Allow me to explain what happened to me

So as I sit riding in a Mercury Milan

With my grandparents silent cause my music’s on

I looked over the events of days past

And suffered a realization that came much too fast

It all hit me at once and it made so much sense

So much time spent, putting energy into one thing

Imagine how you’d feel if that one thing

Became nothing

If you lost one of the things

That you placed the most effort into

It destroys you

And leaving second-guessing every truth

That you’ve ever known.

Making you question morals that you treasure

Women who give you pleasure

And ties you probably shouldn’t have severed

and it makes you wonder just why,

why you put so much energy into it the first place

Why you made it your life when it shouldn’t have been.

Why you willing committed what you knew to be the deepest sin

That’s when it sets in and you realize that you’re the only one to blame

It’s not the same, as losing a loved one or a treasured possession

No, it’s a lesson, that you have to learn if you’re to move on

Cause you’re older now and the time for childish games are gone

Now it’s time to grow up

Time for you to accept what had to happen

No more second-guessing

No more settling for second

And that means no more partaking in fuckery

And no more wondering what’ll become of me

I know what type of man I want to be

And I can be that man, effortlessly.

I don’t know if you can relate

But I know I feel better

I know that misery is a bitch who just begs for my company

But I also know she’ll disappear if I let her

So I pray that I don’t relapse into this pain

So that I can great once again. I just have to make the choice for myself

I have to decide. So as I open the door,

I choose to be better. Thank God, for this car ride.