Darker

I’m getting darker

I can feel it in my skin

I can feel it in my spirit

I can feel it closing in

The way I walk & the way I talk

I don’t recognize myself

I don’t think this is me

Cause this isn’t how I felt

But then again,

That was then and this is now.

Maybe this is me,

But how?

Could be cause I’m older

Cause I know the truth about life

Cause I see the struggle up close

Cause I feel the strife

I keep looking for some reason

Some anchor to purity

Something to keep me good

Even if I’m misunderstood

Then the darkness lashes out

Cause he’s tired of being misunderstood

And tired of being good

For everyone else, except himself

See cause a few months ago

I wouldn’t call a women out her name

So the first time I called my ex a bitch

I knew I wasn’t the same

I just can’t help it

Becoming the nigga I grew up hating

And looking in the mirror every morning

Disappointed because I’m changing

Not for the better

but for the worse

And it hurts

It hurts like hell.

It’s like we’re born pure and life is easy

But soon, it gets harder and harder

I can see the wear and tear in my face

Told you, I’m getting darker.