Cough It All Up x Jaeill & Sekhmet

I’m staring at this once full cup

Knowing it’s not okay just cause I said it while I was fucked up
And I know I fucked up

When you left you left me shattered and i'll tell you what

You took the right side of my brain

Along with the right side of my heart

I really think it’s a shame

How I allowed you to rip me apart
It really is pathetic how for you I let my guard down
How I tied my own puppet strings and handed them to you
How I let you wreck my car as you drove it around town
I repeat to myself every regret over this 40 ounce of brew

I should have put down my foot before, while you were still listening

Instead I chose to babble over this cheap shit I bought at the store 

While my eyes were glistening

And the liquid courage burned my core

You stood on the other side of the phone with your face all twisted
And you listened to me lie about not loving you while I went ballistic
I had to call at least 20 times to keep you from hanging up
Now I’m spitting out toxic words, just coughing all it up

You're staring at that once full cup

And all it took was you saying it once. 

The neurons race the alcohol to my brain

racing to comprehend the words you had been saying.

I love you, you said.

Be mine, you begged

Just as my world came to a crash,

I met your eyes at last.

Running wet, salty rivulets falling

I have to go, I said, my boy is calling. 

The shatter of your heart was so loud

I couldn't even stand to be around.

The alcoholic shade wouldn't save me from the truths that sloppily fell from your lips, so I let go of your fingertips. 

Turning past the corner, my stomach seized

your confession infecting me like a disease.

And the alcohol flowed from my lips

as I remembered the kiss

and I rejected it from my body

coughing it all up.