i feel her coming back to me now
i missed you, me
i haven't been myself
when i'm alone
all of me comes back
all of them
i guess it feels good to fall back on myself
when i'm alone in my mind
when i have no one else
i feel the wall building back up now
the wall that i always break down for love
why?
have i not learned, that it always hurts, hasn't my heart had enough?
of a constant cycle that seems like such an innocent feeling
in the beginning, it's freeing
it's caging me, isolating me
it's tearing my defenses down
so i'm not prepared for the knife that stabs me
that causes me to drown in my own tears, my pain, my blood
It's okay
i'm back now
nothing scares me
nothing matters to me
i don't matter anymore
all over again
i love the feeling of nothingness
i love the void
i'll never understand why i don't walk cautiously around the cliff within my soul
because every time i fall
i remember how alone i am
and i forget what i have the walls for
i can't fall in love again
i won't take the risk
of falling into something so dark
and bottomless
when standing back up isn't promised
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