Drown

When I look at you,

All I see is pain

It penetrates you like a lover

that pushes until you scream their name

When I hear your voice,

It’s strained

With the same pain as before.

Cause that’s all you think you live for.

When I touch you, you’re cold

Cold as ice

The opposite of warm and nice.

The effects of the pain reached their height.

Yet this pain you have

And these challenges you face.

They could be erased.

If you wanted.

You call me at 2 am

Venting as usual asking for a solution

And I give you one cause I know you, I love you

All it takes is for you to do it

But the thing you have to do

To feel the way you want to feel

You refuse.

And I think it’s cause it makes the pain too real.

I think that when you face your pain

It’s so much that you lock it away forever

And then tell yourself that it doesn’t exist.

Tell me, is that it?

Then when it casually leaks out,

You want someone to help.

And you trust no one but me

So who else?

But you don’t take my advice

You just reject everything.

Cause I tell you what you need to do

And you’d do just about anything . . . other than that.

My great-grandmother used to call life a sea

It’s a body of water and the epitome of beauty

But water can be dangerous and it could kill us

If you’re held down by too much

I love you and you know that. I always have.

But I don’t know what to say right now.

It seems like instead of solving your problems and being happy,

You’d rather bear the weight of them all and just drown.