Like when adults hide secrets from their youth
You were the curious three year old
She was the deceitful grown up with her lies so cold
You opened yourself to her completely
Always begging her, "halfway. just meet me."
Like an adult she chuckled and said, "sure."
Why'd you believe her, Jael? Now you're Jaeill in search of a narcotic cure.
The door to your heart, you left it wide open. You're tired of being helpless and your only doing is hoping.
That vodka on the counter is your attempt at coping.
But for now, you're just a no one and you'll always be nothing. Your mind and your thoughts and your hope to be something, all gone.
You find yourself lost, and can't hear a sound. But your name is Ian Moone and you pray to be found.
Love more than you are loved.
That's the rule you've lived by forever.
It's a painful way to live,
but you wouldn't live any other way.
You despise yourself for the secret
that you're afraid to speak on.
It scares you to hide something so loud.
So you hide behind the brave lion face of SEKHMET.
who the fuck are you
can't even answer the question
lost in the world
can't even find your direction
one minute you're a god
the next, a heathen
your fucking mind changes
more than got damn seasons
why do you torture yourself
you're a jewel amongst stones
drowning your sorrows in Skyy
only feel good when you're stoned
split personalities
dodging one another's arrows.
but even the earth needs
both the moon, the sun, and the Sparrøw
you're lost all the time.
you're trying to find a way
out of your mind
it seems like a maze.
you're panicking now
but you hide it like a pro
you can't risk them knowing
because that means they can hurt you, shifrø
You hate yourself.
You never want to ask for help.Yet you know help is what you need
But you just can’t bring yourself to plead
You feel love in the most intense way
You feel like always having something to say
And while you may feel like you’re a mistake
The one you never made was becoming Julius Blake
We are Affectus Aperi,
The Team
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