introduction

bare with me,
i'm new.
writing,
it's not what i do.

writing is how i feel
my mind
my heart 
my soul

so please be open minded

you don't know me, my experiences, or my goals. 

since you know so little about me,

i'd like to keep it that way.

because the more people know,

the more they want to walk away.

i don't know if they're scared of me

or tired of my shit

but i don't want them to leave,

so i need to tone it down a bit.

manipulation occurs 

because i make it so easy

i'm vulnerable 

but it's okay

either way i'm here to be pleasing.

enough about me,

i hate that bitch

lets talk about you

your life, the story of it

i'll get to know you quickly 

better than myself

because i don't care about me,

i care about everyone else.

i'm selfless,

but not in the way that you think.

i'm proud of it,

i can't stand the thought of me.

i don't want to be stuck with myself..

in my mind

it's a scary place 

i don't want to take a risk, i'd rather not try 

aspects,

so many.

it'd take me maybe a century 

to figure out my own self

what is contained in my entity 

my problems have made me into a monster.

but it's okay, i'm harmless.

masochistic,

i will be the only cost. 

you can trust me, i promise.

i won't hurt you.

because honestly? 

it's just that i cant handle more people to lose.

so i just contradicted myself,

you'll catch on.

too many perspectives, 

can personalities be wrong? 

i'm done talking about me,

because i don't like to speak about what i don't know.

but until next time,

i'll leave you with those words, and go.