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"are you okay?"

i'm falling apart

stuck in this empty space

that was my heart

yet, i can hardly bare it's weight

i'm fucking heartbroken

i'm fucking weak

i'm alone again 

this fall is steep

no one can even find me

in order to try and save her

the person i once was

killed myself off like a germ 

i no longer exist 

there is mo such thing as me

i've felt myself slip away from my own grip

watched myself bleed

i'm shaking and losing focus

i can barely see

how could i be so lost 

in the person i call me?

if i'm myself, why do i have to look?

this is supposed to be home, not a journey 

my sanity falls from my fingers

as if my muscles froze

couldn't stop myself from falling

i panic and try to find something to hold

but when i have nothing

what can i grasp?

i'm empty 

stuck in this lapse

my eyes are heavy

along with my heart and mind

what's wrong with me?

how can i feel heavy and empty at the same time?

i'm a mess

from every perspective you could view it in

i've tried

there is no positive

anyways, i could go on

but i don't want to bother

you didn't really care anyways

that wasn't the offer

you just didn't know what you were asking for

or i didn't 

because i'm not okay

but i'll save your time, a simple "yeah" can just fix it. 

not everything is what it seems, is it? 

"are you sure?"
"yeah, thank you though"

(but note this
know my intention
know this isn't a game that i play
everything isn't what it seems
i'm not pushing you away
it's actually opposite
and this'll sound cliche
but i do what i do
and what i think i don't say
because i know it repels when you can't help
not a huge fan of rihanna, but i want you to stay)