Song Of The Moment

11.14.2013

self-destruct

you made me hurt myself until i hated myself.
you made me wrap the hands you once loved around my throat until i couldn't breathe
and slice the thighs you once caressed until blood seeped out just to remind myself i was alive.
unfortunately.
you made me cry until i choked to the point that i couldn't breathe
and force myself to swallow pills until the next morning when i woke up alive.
unfortunately.

causing ultimate destruction to all existing thoughts of you and i
because they were nothing no longer
we were nothing no longer
and that's a concept i've still yet to grasp

you made me hate myself until i hurt myself.
you made me wish i was better for you so you'd take me back
& watched myself cry in the mirror at all of my minuscule flaws which seem so massive now that i'm alone
sadly.
you made me want to console the girl in the mirror and tell her it would be okay
so just maybe one day you'd take me back
and i halfheartedly come to realize that you won't come back for me
and i will remain alone

sadly.

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