Black and White

I was born white

I mean we all are

Brought into this world innocent

And leaving with scars

Scars that represent the darkness

The tinge that it leaves on our skin

The odor it holds when we’re in public

It’s disgusting

And yet I find myself liking it

I find myself bathing in it

Like a babe dipped in water

I dipped out of my good nature & became darker

and I’m proud of it.

I don’t fear it anymore.

I don’t hear you anymore.

So stop knocking at the door

Trying to get the guy you knew back

He’s gone now and he’s not returning

I need you to understand that

I don’t care how much you’re hurting

Cause I was hurting for years

And no one knew

No one cared enough to find out either.

This is what neglect does to you.

It makes your darker.

Makes you not give a fuck

About anyone but yourself

Cause you don’t need anyone else

But I’m not always black

I have my white moments

Where I can be the best guy

And help those who want to die

I tell people how to be happy

And watch it work for them

And I can’t shake it off of me

I can’t fight the envy

And I’ve been white for a while.

I’ve been helping and caring

I’ve been giving advice and secrets to life

I’ve been sharing.

But when being white made me lose the girl

I knew what time it was again

I knew what was at had

I was becoming black again

So know that I’m darker

Know that I’m different again

Know that I’m alone for a reason

Know that I’m not your friend

And know this is my eternal struggle.

My never-ending fight.

Duality personified.

Black and White.