Drifting

A push was all it took

To give me a different outlook

On life and how I’ve changed

And how alone I am these days

Yes I’m by myself

And somehow it helps

Cause I can only worry about me

For once, I don’t need to carry anyone else

Call me selfish but this was a long time coming

All I needed was the incentive to get it started

So when everything I said became an issue,

I just realized I was drifting farther

When I speak to my closest friend

And the end is an argument

It makes me wonder what went wrong

Was it me all along?

When I have no luck with girls at home

But am that nigga when it’s a girl I don’t know

Cause the hoes at home think they know

While the ones away are the ones I hold

When I go places with family,

And I still don’t have a good time

I know why.

Cause this isn’t where I’ll shine.

And shine means happiness, not glory.

I’m not that much of an asshole.

I just want some kind of serenity and I know how to get it now

I know where I have to go

It has to be a place where it’s just me

That’s the only place it can be.

So I don’t have to worry about pleasing and appeasing

And I can find peace.

So all this time, when I thought I was losing

I was actually winning. Moving myself up.

Cause the farther I get away, the more I gain.

I’m just drifting, until I’ve drifted far enough.